These last few months have been interesting.
My oldest son, Darrick moved to Chicago to attend art school in April.
In May I found out that my best friend, Judy, is moving to Atlanta Georgia.
My son Kyle just graduated from high school and in August will be going to Purdue University.
As of August it will just be me and my girls, Whitney and Kira.
It feels like my life is full of change and people that I love furiously are leaving me. Everything is happenening all at once and I feel so lost and afraid.
Even though I know that it is totally God's plan for Judy to move to Atlanta, my heart hurts more than I am willing to admit, She has been my best friend for ten years and we have been through so much together. She has been there for me thru the good, bad and the very very ugly. She slept in a chair for three days in the hospital after I had surgery. When I can't handle or don't know how to handle my strong willed child, she has always been there to help me stay sain. We have done several road trips together and she taught me how to drive in highway traffic, white knuckles and all...she was very patient. And besides I still have two kids in the Oasis, the youth ministry that she has been the pastor for since I met her. My two boys had the privelage of having her for there youth minister since we started attending Granger Community Church. I know that God has a bigger plan for her life (cause if I didn't know this I would kick her butt for leaving) but that does not make it any easier, it still hurts deeply. But I now that this is her next right step and I am so happy for her.
Darrick is almost 21 years old and is attending The Illinois Institute of Art to get his degree in Animation. He is doing so well, I am so proud of him! He is working on his future and doing so in a great way. He loves Chicago and the school. Although I miss him terribly, I know that this is where he needs to be to get where he wants to be. And he is only two hours away. Darrick also comes home regulary to visit. This is his next right step toward his dreams.
Kyle is 18 and working thru the summer to get a little extra cash for school, although it now looks like he may be putting his extra cash into his newly purchased truck. He put too much dirt in the back of it and the tire came off, $600 later its at the shop waiting to be picked up. Kyle is following his dream as well, he is majoring in Landscape Architecture at Purdue University. Again he is only two and a half hours away and can visit regularly. He will also come home for the summers if he is not doing a study abroad program. I am going to miss him so much, he is my right arm. We spend tons of time together and he helps me with the girls, fix things and just talking. But this is his next right step and I am so proud of him.
Although my heart is not looking forward to all these changes and what feels like loses, I know that Jesus will see me thru. It is not going to be easy, but He never promised that it would be. I have some wonderful friends surrounding me who love me and will be there for me during this hard transition. But I am feeling lost and alone and I cling to the promise that "this to shall pass"
Who am I?
I am the daughter of the King Most High whom I love with every part of me. It is all because of Jesus that I will survive this and be better for it. I will follow where He leads me and I will serve Him where He wants me. I am weak, yet strong thru Him. Living this is my next right step.
